aerial’s blog

As November comes to an end, I can't help to feel relieved and sad at how fast time is flying.  I am a little over a hundred days in Korea, and about 70 days until I have lived here for 6 months.  Yet, there is so much more to see and experience.  One year is definitely not enough.  At the same time, I miss my friends and family back home.  December is here tomorrow and the the momentum will only increase as I leave for Hong Kong for the holidays, and then Thailand and Cambodia in January.  On top of that, Polly is visiting for the weekend, and Xylia in the new year.  It's happening fast and I must feel the moment before it flies away...

It is slowly falling into place.  I am going without my parents, just with a friend, to quite a dangerous and crowded place.  I booked my tickets without their consent.  I know I am a 22 year old, but all this time, they were the ones in charge of planning the flights and the hotels.  Now its all up to me...

i left you at the store and i had to get you back.
an umbrella with blue polka dots can definitely make the rainy times sunny.

Can I just lay with you and stare at the sky together?
That would be nirvana.
Leaning my head on your shoulder,
you can smell my hair and I can smell your shirt,
as the sun's rays shine on us.

There are certain things I thought I would not miss for my year's stay in South Korea.  Some, are expected, and some not, as I thought there would be an abundance here:

1. I miss bubble tea.  I know its a Taiwanese drink, but its prominent in HK, Taiwan, and Ive seen it in places in Japan.  Nil in South Korea. 
   
2. I miss Chinese food.  The Chinese food here are Korean styled Chinese food.  I'm Chinese, so I know what Chinese food is.
3. Long drives by myself, while blasting my music

I should not be writing this as it will probably increase my homesickness. 

Remember:  Let him live his life, and let me live mine. 
We are in two separate places.  Let us enjoy our time.

I read this passage: 

"When I consider...the small space I occupy and which I see swallowed up in the infinite immensity of spaces of which I know nothing and which know nothing of me ['l'infinie immensite des espaces que j'ignore et qui m'ignorent],, I take fright and am amazed to see myself here rather than there:  there is no reason for me to be here rather than there, now rather than then.  Who put me here?"

Pascal, Pensees, 68

As I come to a realization that I'm in no capacity to party like the people do here.  I need my alone time, where I can spend time by myself, with my books and my thoughts.  I want to be in bed by a certain time before work.  How do I keep up with these people?  These people are my new family in Incheon.  I go to them to rant, to vent, to spend time together.  Relationships are built so much on time and social exchange.  As I try to balance my solidarity and my social life, I feel I must go and accompany them in order to hold my place within the group.  This sounds like a form of high school already...

I'm looking forward to just letting loose again and seeing my friends I miss from orientation.  Enough of the parties, lets do some siteseeing.  I want to just forget about the weekend and look forward to the future.  Seriously, why do people like to make things awkward?  By putting an alias, you hide the truth from others but not from me.  How do you expect me to react?  Ignore?  Act oblivious?